"what's your excuse?" i asked. "I have no idea" I replied, "I know why." a voice rang inside my head.
excuses excuses excuses... more of them will come just for you to pity your self more and more each day.
well this post aint about no sad excuses i porposely post this not for someone to have pity on me or them selves... (forgive me if they dont connect it's all me)
I wrote a song for "Sophia Bush" my current addiction aside from my beloved and deadly stikz. Well actually, it doesnt directly point to her, it's for a character she portrays in one tree hill namely my beloved "Brooke Davis"
.... moments later.....
sorry, i got distracted by some cute looking and fake looking guy... anyway...
as i was saying, i made a song... It was supposed to be about her, how a guy wanted her so bad it was alright if it's only gonna be about her... all about HER! but it turned out to be not very brooke-ish, it turned out to be crap, just like every other songs i wrote... but anyway, that's not it ( i promise i'll make a point) the point is that it turned out to be about someone i knew... It's like the opening i never saw... to think of it, I had writen a few stuff that actually came true. and i think that this song is one of them.
only, the outcome didnt turn out as pretty as it was supposed to be, any way. let's write a few lines from the song shall we?
*I'm singing cheesy songs again, and i dont know where to begin,
It's allways about you, never about, two hearts that foun theire own again
simple words of compliments that never were true, i hope it aint true
Cause i believe you, and i do need you, and i am willing to do it all over again
with you, all you, just you, i cant say no words, just na na na na na na na
with you, all you, just you, i cant say no words, just na na na na na na na*
The song ends there, i cant say anymore i guess... It's a love song supposedly, yeah, as always. but i think it's a pity song now. and believe me, the person i'm reffering to is a person i've learned to un-love...
it's complicated you see... I thought i loved a person, turned out i was just confused, i always mistake many thing emotions for the real thing. I dunno, HUMAN i guess...
HUMAN error, ang kitid magisip, kagaya ko. ewan. I'm allways doing something wrong, might not be now, but later on, i'll figure it out...
this post will be continued.. and it took me about 5 hours just to reach this far, not even being able to finish it up...
ewan...
i'm so weird... this is incomplete...
to be continued...
the sun is up... can you see it?
