uh? what's her name again? menimenineka, menenemienimeka?! wha?!

I cant remember everything about her...

I dont have a clear memory of her face...

she was the nearest thing i had to a "real bestfriend" (when i was 8 or 9)

I cried infront of her when i got beat up...

again.... i got beat up...

once more...

yeah...

i was down on the floor...

with mud on my face...

one big disgrace. (kinda like the song right? we will we will rock yo!)

anyway...

I cried...

she was saying something like "uh, dont cry, i'm here, i'm here"

as a kid...

it weirded me out..

i mean really...

freaked out big time...

blocked her out...

defensive little sofia...

back then, i thought something like "omg, only my mum can say that."

and now i may say "OMG, i'm that jaded even at that age?"

the real question is "do you have a heart?"

you say, "Nah, you're just gay.."

(LESBO SENSES TINGLING)

atleast i realized something...

i really liked her...

I ma. anna sofia alvir am capable of loving a person...

i really did....

i swear...

even fought for her if my memory is not playing games with me...

this is how 9 year olds play the game...

she jumps of the bird cage(a really high really high birdcage) , and i go crazy insane trying to catch her... i dont let her fall... and i actually do catch her, but i do have a slight memory of actually seeing her cry because i left her...

maybe...


just maybe...


we'd still have that friendship if i didnt leave LBAS...


Maybe she'd be like the "BEA" I will never meet if i stayed there...

I was 9 when i left that place, i cant help wondering what couldve happened if i stayed.

maybe i'd go like act in more plays or something( i was miss tea pot excuse me ehem ehem)

maybe i never found music...

maybe i'd be like my friends from around here... (we were supposed to dance in the tune of what was that? "i'm a barbie girl, in a barbie world" <- that)

or i dunno, maybe be one of the cool kids having all the ight friends and right food (mcdonalds namely)

maybe turned into a real girly girl, or the boy a claim to be (lol)

maybe i'd have my own scooter (cheap ba?)

maybe i dont like coffee. (nu ba 3p nilang inumen?)

anyway...

maybe that's enuff...

truth is, she's a beauty queen dude!

the nine year old friendie...

i just want the friendship back, you know?

it could be nice...

besides...

i really miss the dude, cick, whattever....