Remember this?

A part from Driven away(i think) the story

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We sat together on the old bench where in we grew up playing at… It was actually a silent moment, It was so not like her, she would be very perky most of the times, but this time, she’s silent.

 

Then she asked “ Matt…” she said , “can I ask you something?”

“Sure…” I said, “anything.”

“am I anything of a burden to you?” she asked.

“no, not at all” I replied, “ why do you ask?”

“I dunno…” she said “ It just seemed like you don’t like me, at all…”

 

Then she laid back and closed her eyes. I just kept looking at her. A burden? Was she a burden? I couldn't’t have made half my life without her, she was no burden, she was, she was there… I didn't’t let my self get affected by what she said, I didn't’t want to say things I wanted to say,I cannot breathe, i cannot think, I never felt pain like this before, a pain you get by just looking at a person, a person you’re only allowed to truly look at when they have there eyes closed… I was speechless… so I just almost kissed her left cheek then left. She had her eyes closed but opened it up when she felt that I was leaving… It was sad really, like an unfinished chapter, she just looked at me, maybe she knew and didn't’t want to make things worst, she knew, somehow, I know she did…

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Dedicated to Chams... matt's bestfreind..


I could still remember that day, the day i felt the very same way.

the very reason i wrote it down, for me not to forget how it felt like to be unloved.

lol.

bitter bitter optimistic me.

It's the saddest thing...

like falling in love with a photograph. an idea you can see but barely reach.

that's how i felt that day, the day you began to drift away.

the final days i'll never forget, the very moment i'll never regret.

the day i loved you..

it would always be true.

wahaha

still sounded a bit jaded though, but heck, i tried.