*For non smokers* I appologize to you dear non smoker...
*and for smokers* I'm only gonna say like three lines about this.
I was so hungry, as in gutom ako!!! Then I wanted to buy a burger or something, then i realized that my wallet was nowhere to be found. I made halughog of my bag already. wala xa, as in wala.
At first i thought it was lost, I had the weirdest feeling it getting stolen by someone in SM... Because i had the weirdest thought that i placed it precisely inide my bag, along wth the other junk found insde.
So a sat there in my grief and dissapointment, and barely unblieveable but empty growling and HUNGRY stomach! I was hungry... so I smoked. I took one stik and was sad lighting it up. and when i released the smoke that went into my fragile and hurt inner organs. "paksiw" i said. It tasted like one I thought. my mind and stomach was playing games with me. I was just a hungry kid. a broke hungry fucked up kid who has no buissness ever being present on that very corner of the dark park.
So if your still reading this, it means you survived my twisted inner most shallow thoughts.
A tragedy occured. And i believe i caused it. It happened before i realized that I pia alvir destroy perfect imagery. ahhhh fuck the end theory! I destroy lives!!!
I call my self the evil ruler while all i'm trying to do is to help people!!!
NEWS FALSH!!! I"M NOT OBLIGED TO DO SO!!!
'm just too stupid and fucked up to figure it out in my already preoccupied shallow head!
I say things i dont understand, do things i dont. I dot have reasons! I lack reasons! I have no space for reasoning!!! all I say are excuses! I'm not helping, i make things worst!! I hate it!
I need a break! I need my own remote contol!!! like Click!! you know? gaaaa! I need help, cause i'm helpless... I feel used and unwanted. I cant live like this...
I wanna ruN!!! what have i done! i cant think too much! too much all at once i blrt things out! My problem is that i dont think anymore! I dont digest before i learn to eat! I listen to much! I feel so lost for words!
Al thanks to one person! haha, forget it. ohwell... help if you want, that is if you read this far. yeah.
blow "paksiw"
blow "chicken joooy"
and to think of it i dont really eat jollybee...
ohwell..
ohwell......
Monday, October 29, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
the 20 that is you. 10-18-07
you once told me that you're worth nothing to me, well let me tell you that you're worth 20, 20 stikz of nothing, 20 bucks of nothing, 20 days of nothing ,20 seconds of nothing.
Remind me always that you wont worth nothing more or less than 20 times of nothing. let me make it clear to you that you are nothing more than thyat, let me say it to your face so that i wont think of twenty useless excuses of why I still feel the after shock 0of my senses.
I cant name 20 reasons why i stil care, casue 20 is not enough, but that's how far I can go. 10 to you, ten to home. 20's of nothing.
Maybe you are right, maybe you're not even worth of my 20 seconds, not worth of my 20 songs, of my 20 stikz. Mybe I'm just Pretending that you're worth something considering i might be worth something to you.
honestly, i can say the same line you told me. "I'm not worth anything to you" caus honestly, I dont really know, and i'm noy waiting 20 seconds more to find out. Cause what i'm feeling now is what i should believe, time cant tell anymore. Time wont change howmuch i mean to you, or how much you do to me...
Remind me always that you wont worth nothing more or less than 20 times of nothing. let me make it clear to you that you are nothing more than thyat, let me say it to your face so that i wont think of twenty useless excuses of why I still feel the after shock 0of my senses.
I cant name 20 reasons why i stil care, casue 20 is not enough, but that's how far I can go. 10 to you, ten to home. 20's of nothing.
Maybe you are right, maybe you're not even worth of my 20 seconds, not worth of my 20 songs, of my 20 stikz. Mybe I'm just Pretending that you're worth something considering i might be worth something to you.
honestly, i can say the same line you told me. "I'm not worth anything to you" caus honestly, I dont really know, and i'm noy waiting 20 seconds more to find out. Cause what i'm feeling now is what i should believe, time cant tell anymore. Time wont change howmuch i mean to you, or how much you do to me...
Monday, October 22, 2007
OMG! I WAS SICK FOR TWO LONG WEEKS!
This is weird, but honestly true... when I tell people i'm sick, but i'm really not, they tend to believe me, but when I really am, and tell them, they don't believe me.
What does a human need to do to make things right again?
This is originally supposed to be about something, then it just turns into something different which turns out to be something, but something completely different form the original topic, but still the same...? Whaaat?
And I cant explain it any differently.
I say what i say, but never really mean it. It's either half true, or half protected.
Speaking of different things, let me add this up. Me and my nikka spent the weekend together. my nikka meaning my nikka, my cousin since she was born, cause i was born first.My nikka and I had a lot of catching up to do, and being completely different from each other, I never could have thought that views about love got switched by a weird twist of fate.
My nikka, is HOT in any words you place it, yeah yeah,were like the opposites... we both smoke, we both drink that's the only thing that i could say we have in common, oh and we can both laugh our hearts out over some stupid mistake like "Hugas isda" hahaha! long story.
We all know i'm Jaded, yes it is indeed old news. While i'm so jaded, she's very much head over heels when it's about love. She's like "forever" "together" "never over" "love love love"
demnit!
Honestly, she should be the jaded one, I should be the one like that.
She's like stick to one, ONE ALONE! forever! from now, to the end? I asked her what she would do if they break up, she replied that she'd go like suicidal! demnit, were the same in that way, but, but still! We have different reasons to do what we do, for the same thing! the magic of love!
It is magic I tell you! I could get suicidal for many reasons. and I do can tell that love is one of the reason, i just cant figure it out! I feel so alone most of the time, but in times, it's all that i ever need. She does it for lacking love in love, and i do it for searching love.
She can say the words i dare not say! she's a fighter! I'm a coward! I hid bihind the sheets of life, and wait for destiny, she seeks and and find it!
my Cousin is unbelievable.
And to think and say it to her face na "mas mapaglaro pala ako sayo"
kung sabagay hindi xa athlete. pero inde eh, mali eh, baliktad, dapat siya ung malaro, dapat siya ung me problema sa pagtitiwala, hay buhay.
kaya siguro ako ung tumaba. kase alam na ni lord yung mga balak ko!
haha!
EVIL RULER OFF!
What does a human need to do to make things right again?
This is originally supposed to be about something, then it just turns into something different which turns out to be something, but something completely different form the original topic, but still the same...? Whaaat?
And I cant explain it any differently.
I say what i say, but never really mean it. It's either half true, or half protected.
Speaking of different things, let me add this up. Me and my nikka spent the weekend together. my nikka meaning my nikka, my cousin since she was born, cause i was born first.My nikka and I had a lot of catching up to do, and being completely different from each other, I never could have thought that views about love got switched by a weird twist of fate.
My nikka, is HOT in any words you place it, yeah yeah,were like the opposites... we both smoke, we both drink that's the only thing that i could say we have in common, oh and we can both laugh our hearts out over some stupid mistake like "Hugas isda" hahaha! long story.
We all know i'm Jaded, yes it is indeed old news. While i'm so jaded, she's very much head over heels when it's about love. She's like "forever" "together" "never over" "love love love"
demnit!
Honestly, she should be the jaded one, I should be the one like that.
She's like stick to one, ONE ALONE! forever! from now, to the end? I asked her what she would do if they break up, she replied that she'd go like suicidal! demnit, were the same in that way, but, but still! We have different reasons to do what we do, for the same thing! the magic of love!
It is magic I tell you! I could get suicidal for many reasons. and I do can tell that love is one of the reason, i just cant figure it out! I feel so alone most of the time, but in times, it's all that i ever need. She does it for lacking love in love, and i do it for searching love.
She can say the words i dare not say! she's a fighter! I'm a coward! I hid bihind the sheets of life, and wait for destiny, she seeks and and find it!
my Cousin is unbelievable.
And to think and say it to her face na "mas mapaglaro pala ako sayo"
kung sabagay hindi xa athlete. pero inde eh, mali eh, baliktad, dapat siya ung malaro, dapat siya ung me problema sa pagtitiwala, hay buhay.
kaya siguro ako ung tumaba. kase alam na ni lord yung mga balak ko!
haha!
EVIL RULER OFF!
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Tuesday, October 16, 2007
Movie in your head
hmmmm... I made this before the song was made... kinda answered the thought... hahaha
BONEZart
i made this t2o years ago i think... haha, it was those times... that i was so inlove w/.... avril...
to bad...
the insomiady of a clueless mind
hmmm, cant think of a decent title for this... ohwell...
the insomiady of a clueless mind
Pia, pia, wake up, wake up , wake up. Wake up from this dream, this reality aint a dream.
This reality is cruel, this reality wont let you dream, this reality is real, words you say, things you do, wound you gave, song you've made, blood you bleed, they effect every single living organizm
wake up, wake up, dont sleep away from reality, you cant escape if you dont wake up. sleeping, sleeping makes you dream, leeping gives you something to hold on to, but... but sleeping doesnt freeze time, time moves even in your sleep, you're still in this reality when you sleep.
you see the end and yuo're not willing to change it, and you let it all happen, just like her, i think her name was Betty, that girl in your dream, you let things happen, but reality is, you can change it.
Remember that you're alive, remember it the moment you sleep "tell me that you'll open your eyes" remember that song (snow patrol - open your eyes).
remember me pia, i care, it's just you i cant figure out...
the insomiady of a clueless mind
Pia, pia, wake up, wake up , wake up. Wake up from this dream, this reality aint a dream.
This reality is cruel, this reality wont let you dream, this reality is real, words you say, things you do, wound you gave, song you've made, blood you bleed, they effect every single living organizm
wake up, wake up, dont sleep away from reality, you cant escape if you dont wake up. sleeping, sleeping makes you dream, leeping gives you something to hold on to, but... but sleeping doesnt freeze time, time moves even in your sleep, you're still in this reality when you sleep.
you see the end and yuo're not willing to change it, and you let it all happen, just like her, i think her name was Betty, that girl in your dream, you let things happen, but reality is, you can change it.
Remember that you're alive, remember it the moment you sleep "tell me that you'll open your eyes" remember that song (snow patrol - open your eyes).
remember me pia, i care, it's just you i cant figure out...
Monday, October 15, 2007
I had a girlfriend....
one of the saddest dream i ever had... very gay, but sincere and kind. VERY GAY, but i didnt want that moment to end, very clear yet filled with doubts.
It felt like i knew what was happening, yet i'm clueless... It felt like i had to hold on, yet what i'm doing is letting go... I wasnt doing anything, i watched everything happening without doing anything... It began how it ends, I was powerless... my darkest days of lightness.
starts with a kiss, ends in one, the rule of a broken heart. and i made that part up.
it was a dream yet the emotions i was feeling was real, i didnt seem mine, but i wanted it, even for just that very moment... I wanted it, i wanted so much to hold on that i let go, i cant do anything about it, cause we were doing the same thing, running away from our inner burdens...
I didnt know her, but her face was familiar, it felt like i knew her, or will i find her, will i meet her? will this happen to me? can i really see the future through a stupid alter reality? or maybe i've seen it to avoid it? can I avoid fate being merely human? or was i destined to make that mistake...
just like the picture i've drawn, it's like i've seen it... before i dreamnt it, i knew it, it was the exat message that i drew, i saw it, a sad kiss ended it, the moment that wast supposed to last, the first to the last, it ends and begins, then let go, with all the others....
I felt great greif to a picture i can no longer see, to a pictuer i can no longer bring back, a picture, a mere picture in side my deepest subconciousness...
i didnt get your name...
i just figured out you didnt know mine aswell...
nice meeting you....
It felt like i knew what was happening, yet i'm clueless... It felt like i had to hold on, yet what i'm doing is letting go... I wasnt doing anything, i watched everything happening without doing anything... It began how it ends, I was powerless... my darkest days of lightness.
starts with a kiss, ends in one, the rule of a broken heart. and i made that part up.
it was a dream yet the emotions i was feeling was real, i didnt seem mine, but i wanted it, even for just that very moment... I wanted it, i wanted so much to hold on that i let go, i cant do anything about it, cause we were doing the same thing, running away from our inner burdens...
I didnt know her, but her face was familiar, it felt like i knew her, or will i find her, will i meet her? will this happen to me? can i really see the future through a stupid alter reality? or maybe i've seen it to avoid it? can I avoid fate being merely human? or was i destined to make that mistake...
just like the picture i've drawn, it's like i've seen it... before i dreamnt it, i knew it, it was the exat message that i drew, i saw it, a sad kiss ended it, the moment that wast supposed to last, the first to the last, it ends and begins, then let go, with all the others....
I felt great greif to a picture i can no longer see, to a pictuer i can no longer bring back, a picture, a mere picture in side my deepest subconciousness...
i didnt get your name...
i just figured out you didnt know mine aswell...
nice meeting you....
Saturday, October 13, 2007
drafts... working on it...
oh no, were falling again
it aint slow, like the way it begins
the way it ends...
Dont go, cause i'm lost from with in
your heart shows, a weakness that breaks my heart
it's hat set us apart my friend.
and i've drawn some lines i cant retrace
the broken heart i cant replace...
I'll bee home soon 2x
i'll be seeing you my freind 2x
you dont know how i'm missing you now
your light glows but i'm lost in the darkest of night
and it's breaking my heart.
Dont go, dont leave me behind,
dont you know that i cant live without your sight
please go and make things right again.
it aint slow, like the way it begins
the way it ends...
Dont go, cause i'm lost from with in
your heart shows, a weakness that breaks my heart
it's hat set us apart my friend.
and i've drawn some lines i cant retrace
the broken heart i cant replace...
I'll bee home soon 2x
i'll be seeing you my freind 2x
you dont know how i'm missing you now
your light glows but i'm lost in the darkest of night
and it's breaking my heart.
Dont go, dont leave me behind,
dont you know that i cant live without your sight
please go and make things right again.
a friendster survey, harhar.
ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
x it's self inflicted... or noah's fault, oh, only one? oh well...
WHAT IS ON THE WALL IN YOUR ROOM?
x Pia's Doodles, and sacromace poster thingy.
HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
x a bit happy... that's good right?
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
x last fool show - i made it :/
DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
x 12 i think
WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING
RIGHT NOW?
x to wake in a different reality
WHAT DO YOU MISS?
x what?! not who, wow, that's new...
WHICH DO YOU PREFER HOTDOGS/BURGERS?
x Pizza
WHAT ARE YOU CONSIDERED
[PREP, GOTHIC,JOCK,ETC??]]
x the kid with ADHD. har har.
DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
x DUDE, i invented the word. har har.
THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
x ZELLENANDRO
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
x Blue water
WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE
ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
x curly brown. or black. waharhar
COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
x coffee
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
x any pizza would do, just dont serve me a plain one...
IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW,
WHAT WOULD IT BE?
x chocolate chip cookies or oreos
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU
MAD?
x mad as in super mad? i may say sophia bush, but i'm to damn in love with the person ta actually know ho i'm feeling, harhar.
DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
x no, i only speak tagalog. (and my answer goes in English.) magic.
WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE
YOU?
x clothes, cause i was born naked.
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
x I dont.
FAVOR ITE CLOTHES?
x =}
WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE
PERSON IS TAKEN?
x shit happens (ty to forset gump)
WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE
HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
x I dont actually speak. but word leaks even without speaking. so shout it all out facing the sky. jump for joy, fall for a cliff...
SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100
x 7
WHO IS THE PERSON YOU CALL OFTEN?
x alfiemylab
WHAT ANNOYS YOU?
x not having a decent computer table, mosquito bites, small jeepneys, pimples, dog poop, dog barking in the middle of recordings.
YOUR WEAKNESSES?
x(refers to her/himself)
insensitive and sensitive - if a gurl
insensitive and eye contact - if a guy
FIRST JOB?
x personal house keeper of the MAN. it's for free cause you owe them your life.
EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
x too old for it, but am willing to if drunk, or paid to do so.
WHAT WERE YOU DOING WHEN YOU FILLED
THIS?
x harharing my self into doing more harharing. har har.
IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT
WOULD IT BE?
x god might not recognize me, if i even get there for doing so, or not, basta, i'd rather not, call me ancient, bahala kau, iba paniniwala ko. dudun!
WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
x OMG, cause i loved it so much. harhar.
WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT
MOST?
x fat but pretty, yeah like i buy that crap. thanks for the burden that's eating my soul.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME
ILLEGAL?
x I'd have an underground society of drinkers, we'd drink to death unless legalize it again.
WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
x LOVE, yeah right.
HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
x doesnt pop to my mind yet
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
x yeah, maria - mamamary, anna - mom sofia- grat grand mother.
DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
x no, but i like to stargaze
WHICH FINGER(S) IS YOUR FAVORITE?
x the dirty finger, yeah in your face mahn!
WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
x last week i think.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
x sucks, as always...
x it's self inflicted... or noah's fault, oh, only one? oh well...
WHAT IS ON THE WALL IN YOUR ROOM?
x Pia's Doodles, and sacromace poster thingy.
HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
x a bit happy... that's good right?
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
x last fool show - i made it :/
DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
x 12 i think
WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING
RIGHT NOW?
x to wake in a different reality
WHAT DO YOU MISS?
x what?! not who, wow, that's new...
WHICH DO YOU PREFER HOTDOGS/BURGERS?
x Pizza
WHAT ARE YOU CONSIDERED
[PREP, GOTHIC,JOCK,ETC??]]
x the kid with ADHD. har har.
DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
x DUDE, i invented the word. har har.
THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
x ZELLENANDRO
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOGNE/PERFUME?
x Blue water
WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE
ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
x curly brown. or black. waharhar
COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
x coffee
WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA?
x any pizza would do, just dont serve me a plain one...
IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW,
WHAT WOULD IT BE?
x chocolate chip cookies or oreos
WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT MADE YOU
MAD?
x mad as in super mad? i may say sophia bush, but i'm to damn in love with the person ta actually know ho i'm feeling, harhar.
DO YOU SPEAK ANOTHER LANGUAGE?
x no, i only speak tagalog. (and my answer goes in English.) magic.
WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE GAVE
YOU?
x clothes, cause i was born naked.
DO YOU LIKE SOMEONE?
x I dont.
FAVOR ITE CLOTHES?
x =}
WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE
PERSON IS TAKEN?
x shit happens (ty to forset gump)
WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE
HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
x I dont actually speak. but word leaks even without speaking. so shout it all out facing the sky. jump for joy, fall for a cliff...
SAY A NUMBER FROM 1-100
x 7
WHO IS THE PERSON YOU CALL OFTEN?
x alfiemylab
WHAT ANNOYS YOU?
x not having a decent computer table, mosquito bites, small jeepneys, pimples, dog poop, dog barking in the middle of recordings.
YOUR WEAKNESSES?
x(refers to her/himself)
insensitive and sensitive - if a gurl
insensitive and eye contact - if a guy
FIRST JOB?
x personal house keeper of the MAN. it's for free cause you owe them your life.
EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
x too old for it, but am willing to if drunk, or paid to do so.
WHAT WERE YOU DOING WHEN YOU FILLED
THIS?
x harharing my self into doing more harharing. har har.
IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT
WOULD IT BE?
x god might not recognize me, if i even get there for doing so, or not, basta, i'd rather not, call me ancient, bahala kau, iba paniniwala ko. dudun!
WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
x OMG, cause i loved it so much. harhar.
WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT
MOST?
x fat but pretty, yeah like i buy that crap. thanks for the burden that's eating my soul.
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME
ILLEGAL?
x I'd have an underground society of drinkers, we'd drink to death unless legalize it again.
WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
x LOVE, yeah right.
HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
x doesnt pop to my mind yet
WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
x yeah, maria - mamamary, anna - mom sofia- grat grand mother.
DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
x no, but i like to stargaze
WHICH FINGER(S) IS YOUR FAVORITE?
x the dirty finger, yeah in your face mahn!
WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
x last week i think.
DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
x sucks, as always...
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
sickness
Out of faith in need of redemption
i had my way in this road of deception
and all i needs a little time
away from you, away from perfection
in this world their is no solution
on how it rains but i feel so dry
with the stain you left behind
the emotions i cant find today,
makes me better some other day,
but it wont make you mine
Counting the days w/ new resolutions
ends my day with another pollution
a billion reason for me to die
I'm doomed to hell in burning confusion
i feel so good with nothing but poison
how can i clear my mind
with the stain you left behind
the emotions i cant find today,
makes me better some other day,
but it wont make you mine
I cant feel, i cant weep
i cant breathe, i cant feel without you (feel with out you) 4x
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one of the songs i made in my darkest of days....
i had my way in this road of deception
and all i needs a little time
away from you, away from perfection
in this world their is no solution
on how it rains but i feel so dry
with the stain you left behind
the emotions i cant find today,
makes me better some other day,
but it wont make you mine
Counting the days w/ new resolutions
ends my day with another pollution
a billion reason for me to die
I'm doomed to hell in burning confusion
i feel so good with nothing but poison
how can i clear my mind
with the stain you left behind
the emotions i cant find today,
makes me better some other day,
but it wont make you mine
I cant feel, i cant weep
i cant breathe, i cant feel without you (feel with out you) 4x
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one of the songs i made in my darkest of days....
perfect memory -remy zero
Remember how they always seemed to know
We had the forest in our eyes
But the earth was in our clothes
And they thought we'd fall
Not at all
So look back on the treasured days
We were young in a world that was so tired
Though it's not what we wanted before
Even the saints had to crawl from the floor
Summers when the money was gone you'd sing
All you're little songs that meant everything to me
And I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
I'll remember you that way
Remember how they tried to hold you down
And we climbed those towers
And looked down upon our town
And everything you hoped would last
Just always becomes your past (it hurts)
Summers when the money was gone you'd sing
All your little songs that meant everything to me
And I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
I'll remember you always
But then this world slipped through my fingers
And even the sun seemed tired
I still cared
As I lowered you down my heart just jaded
In that moment the earth made no sound
But you were there
You helped me lift my pain into the air
I still miss you
God I still miss you
I know that you are waiting there
I always thought that you'd come home
And I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
If it don't hurt you
It won't hurt me
It don't hurt me
Then it won't hurt you
If it don't hurt you
It won't hurt me that way
We had the forest in our eyes
But the earth was in our clothes
And they thought we'd fall
Not at all
So look back on the treasured days
We were young in a world that was so tired
Though it's not what we wanted before
Even the saints had to crawl from the floor
Summers when the money was gone you'd sing
All you're little songs that meant everything to me
And I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
I'll remember you that way
Remember how they tried to hold you down
And we climbed those towers
And looked down upon our town
And everything you hoped would last
Just always becomes your past (it hurts)
Summers when the money was gone you'd sing
All your little songs that meant everything to me
And I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
I'll remember you always
But then this world slipped through my fingers
And even the sun seemed tired
I still cared
As I lowered you down my heart just jaded
In that moment the earth made no sound
But you were there
You helped me lift my pain into the air
I still miss you
God I still miss you
I know that you are waiting there
I always thought that you'd come home
And I'll remember you
And the things that we used to do
And the things that we used to say
If it don't hurt you
It won't hurt me
It don't hurt me
Then it won't hurt you
If it don't hurt you
It won't hurt me that way
Thursday, October 4, 2007
believe me there are already too much sofia's in my bush of a life...
I've been watching One tree hill lately... And Brooke Davis got me big time... AKA Sophia BUSH!
having the same made me even adore her more, looking like avril ot me obsessed over her, and having her character... waaaaaa, another high me i may say...
She got me big time, like the big bright picture, I've never been this perky since my perky days... I cant even yell it out... even at my highest of pitch i cant get her out of my system, waaaaaaaaa, I'm goin gay again, i think... but i'll get over it... Just the thought of her makes me smile... (oo-oh did i just say her.) :D
she makes my eye twitch like when i'm so mad, but in a good way, i guess keeping emotions makes my eye twitch, cause i dont wanna scream like crazy in this stupid shop filled with kids playing computer games...
It's like there's a pattern you see... when i like someone, they look like someone I already like, and later on despised... but I won hate her, her i intend to keep... unlike avril... she thought me to let go... yeah... let live...
let's see the list shall wee?
First we have Aviril, we all know what she looks like, and what she is, and what she have become...
then saw lindsay lohan at freaky friday, some treat...
Rachelle McAdams... the queenbe... the notebook... i like her too...
Evangeline Lilly of lost... as kate... I like her too
Kate Beckinsale, they DRIVE ME INSANE!!!! serendipity, underworld, click? waaaa
then now sophia bush, the one i share my name with... CHAD YOUR SUCH AN ASS...
hmmm... feel free to search for them... they all look alike in a way... and that's what's killing me... but Sophia Bush is Different... haha, I dowanna see her... she kills me... demnit... nyt nyt...
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