Monday, October 15, 2007

I had a girlfriend....

one of the saddest dream i ever had... very gay, but sincere and kind. VERY GAY, but i didnt want that moment to end, very clear yet filled with doubts.

It felt like i knew what was happening, yet i'm clueless... It felt like i had to hold on, yet what i'm doing is letting go... I wasnt doing anything, i watched everything happening without doing anything... It began how it ends, I was powerless... my darkest days of lightness.

starts with a kiss, ends in one, the rule of a broken heart. and i made that part up.

it was a dream yet the emotions i was feeling was real, i didnt seem mine, but i wanted it, even for just that very moment... I wanted it, i wanted so much to hold on that i let go, i cant do anything about it, cause we were doing the same thing, running away from our inner burdens...

I didnt know her, but her face was familiar, it felt like i knew her, or will i find her, will i meet her? will this happen to me? can i really see the future through a stupid alter reality? or maybe i've seen it to avoid it? can I avoid fate being merely human? or was i destined to make that mistake...

just like the picture i've drawn, it's like i've seen it... before i dreamnt it, i knew it, it was the exat message that i drew, i saw it, a sad kiss ended it, the moment that wast supposed to last, the first to the last, it ends and begins, then let go, with all the others....

I felt great greif to a picture i can no longer see, to a pictuer i can no longer bring back, a picture, a mere picture in side my deepest subconciousness...

i didnt get your name...

i just figured out you didnt know mine aswell...

nice meeting you....

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